I’m so sad about the tragic death of two people that I’ve looked up to. Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain they have inspired me so much over the years. Depression is the hardest thing to deal with, battling your inner demons. Ending it all seems so easy but it leaves a lasting impact on the people you love and the people you inspire. Sometimes there just isn’t help that’s when you have to reshape your reality. Coming from someone who suffered with depression I understand what they went through. I say shaking your reality meaning sometimes you have to make drastic changes in your life. It can be anything from moving separating yourself from loved ones whatever it takes to find that inner peace. In my heart, I don’t think suicide is the answer. finding joy and new things new possibility can really help. I came to a point in my life where I didn’t even want to get out of bed. Partly why I haven’t been writing so much is because I’ve been feeling so depressed so defeated I’m not even a good writer and I know it, but still brings me joy it allows these dark thoughts to be placed on paper and out of my mind. finding solace in the people the places the beauty of the world. No one in this life is perfect we all suffer so much it makes life seem not important but maybe the purpose of life is to live through the fear the depression to find the light and yourself and love yourself unconditionally. how many of us can really say that we love ourselves unconditionally, I feel I love my boyfriend more than I love myself and I would do anything for him but I don’t know if I would do everything for myself. we all need to take time for ourselves say no to things that make us sad or overwhelmed. These are random thoughts I felt the need to share with all of you. I want you to know that you’re not alone and even though I do not know you I am happy that you share this Earth with me. I appreciate you for what you give to this earth. You are not suffering alone, there are so many others with you. we should all try to build each other up, this world is not a competition we should stop making at one and make it about being kind to everyone.